just in case i forget

i don't want to forget anything, because so far this has been the best summer ive had in a long time, and i couldnt be happier or more grateful.

wednesday was our 6 month,
top secret adventure

drive in diner, drive in movies, i felt sick, slept over at adams

i dont know why im feeling so sick lately, it worries me

everyday is usually the same, wake up, go to work, go home, lately like the weather, ive been lazy, watching tv and not really doing anything.

if its beautiful out, im more active, i run, i read, i clean, everything means more and i feel more secure when its nice out, i just need consistency which doesnt ever happen here.

i dont know i dont know

moving down south soon i hope.

haha yeah right,.

it's times like these im glad i have one

i dont wish for tragedy, i dont, but sometimes i wish i could feel a rush of emotion, more than i ever have before.

i have thoughts running at a million miles an hour and if i could just slow them down, everything would come out articulate and like a genius.

i have a great life, i do, but i need to make things happen, im letting too much time pass that i could fill up with better things.

blah blah blah me me me

Yesterday:
I woke up at 6, felt sick to my stomach, fell back asleep, Dad woke me up at 7 "up and At'em?"
sat straight up, no idea what's going on "YUP". got dressed quickly, unhappy with hygienic state, slather on more than normal amount of deodorant, change my shirt and feel a little more fresh. Brush my teeth, hit my gums w the brush, bloody. Bad morning. Get to work. Feel sick, eat grapes and cheeries, feel better, still groggy. Unhappy w life, family, grades, boyfriend, family. Help Amanda, feel a little better, talk to Adam, feel loads better. Leave work early, spend time with AJ, Mom, Payton, and Elliot. Everything is better. Feel like a baby, guilty guilty. McDonalds, Beach w the kids and mom and aj. lots of fun, watch the lion king w payton, then the hills, run to the bank, drop off rent check, go for a run, dawdle, shower, volleyball, we win, close game, go home, stomach nasea sinks back in, watch housewives, Adams spontaneous visit!, talk talk talk, send him off, back to show, fall asleep.

Today!:

Wake up, on time, pick out outfit, confidence going on. Waffle for breakfast with Dad, excellent. Enough time for makeup and hair, even better. Wings later, not hungry for them yet. Work earlier than usual, good good. Lunch w Megan? Craving noodles. Scan vitae scan vitae. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind later. Run later, wings later. Clean room later. Listen to She&Him. Paint nails? In love with Summer. Talk to Anna and Caitlin, think of this weekend, Megan and Noah. Adam? Adam! :]